47 Years Old and Big Changes Happening

I haven't written in long time. So what prompts me to write today? I was laid off from my job of 15 years. It was a shocker to me and most everyone I know, but it isn't a bad thing. I was burned out and longing to be walked out of this hellhole. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't a wasted 15 years. I was able to work with my sister and a very good friend that I've known since I was 19. It wasn't always a bed of roses, but I could pick worse people to work with! Along this ride I learned to speak on the phone with confidence, a whole set of Accounting skills that will be marketable until the day that I die, how to take pride in what you do and not let anybody diminish those feelings....no matter what. Every job is important. It all needs to get done and hopefully you can have some ah-ha moments and fun times while doing it.


Now it is time for me to move on. I am taking at least a month off to find myself again. I am off to a good start, because I am enjoying myself, learning about myself, doing things that I love to do, and spending time in silence. As a matter of fact, I leave on Labor Day to take a cross-country road trip to and from Petaluma California. My best friend in the whole world is my destination. I'm interested to find out what I will learn on this two-week journey. Maybe I will write on this blog about it.


For now, I am happy, relaxed, and hopeful. I am learning to trust the Universe with my future, and also myself. Being 47 is kind of fun!

My Passion for Lodi

Thinking about Lodi: It is a region almost direct east of Petaluma and San Francisco Bay....south of the Sacramaneto River Delta, which provides cool breezes "natural air-conditioning" for the precious Cabernet Sauvignon and Zinfandel grape vines that it is known for. It is actually the perfect region to grow these grapes and I recommend seeking out Zins especially, but also Cabs from this region. I have found sexy, mysterious wines with deep, dark, chocolatey flavors with a hint of tobacco. You just want to take the bottle to a deep dark corner and savour it alone or with a best friend! Trust me...seek out Lodi wines. I have been. (lol)

Dear Rich

Dear Rich:

Within the last month there have been constant emotional and physical reminders of our time together 20-some years ago. I'm not sure why this is all of a sudden happening to me, but I've decided that it means that it's time for me to source this for good. There are things that I should have told you a long time ago, but it was necessary for our relationship to end abruptly if not to protect myself.

My Mom and Dad both came from families where there was abuse, whether it be emotional or physical, I'm not totally positive. It was natural for them to carry on this abuse once they had their family. I was never physically abused, but there were mental and emotional things that occurred that I have dealt with my whole life. I realize that my situation is extremely mild in comparison to what is going on out there in the world, but I was still affected nevertheless. Saying that, it was natural for me to subconsciously chose boyfriends that treated me in a similar fashion. That's where you come into the picture.

I'm not sure if you know or realize that you were abusive to me mentally, emotionally, and physically. You were, and it was very scary. This abuse wasn't about "who I was" it was about who you were. There is a good chance that you were abused during your life as a child, and it doesn't matter who it was. Parent, teacher, uncle, sibling...it's all the same. I'm sorry for how this affected you. For all I know, you have awakened to the problem and have gotten help. It is not too late. I now you have a child also. It's not too late to get your child help as well. Health insurance does cover this. The best thing you can do is open your mind and heart. Please stop the chain of abuse so that the future generations of your family don't suffer in the same pain that you have.

I have stopped the chain of abuse with myself. My daughter is thriving and happy and I have a husband that treats me with love and respect. I kind of have you to thank for waking me up, but would be happier knowing that you have woken up too.

Hopeful Regards,

Julie

Why is all the news about (guess who politician) lately. Can we say "Jeff Dunham Puppet"? Is this a joke. Really? Take off the mask. Wow. What we as American people put up with is astounding.

Fool No More!

Some people think they can fool us forever, but they can't. And they know it. I don't care how many people they are able to bring into their pathetic "life". The truth is wide open for some of us that can really see. Now after dragging my husband's best friend all over the country for 15 years and doing everything you can to keep him away from us...wow. Here you are galavanting around the country spending money like you're the rich, entitled girl while our friend is living poor. I'm so mad...but wait. I really do believe that what comes around goes around. It's all coming back to you lady. And won't it be interesting.

Getting Older

It was time to start a blog. I'm usually late at joining in with the general public. It's just now in my 40's that I'm starting to realize why I've always been like this. I just don't want to be like everyone else! I want to be different! Well, I am different....but we all are. We just don't know how different we all really are! Or are we? Why do we try to be alike? We actually are all a part of the same ocean...we are just different sized waves with different sounds!